Monday, October 19, 2009
Anyone can help me seriously ?
I lost my ways
i don't know what i can do and what i want now ?
I lost my ways
i don't know what i can do and what i want now ?
Go to school every days I do not know what that really means to me
go to school just for talking,playing fools,copying homework
i didn't study at all in this year
so my result was very SUCKS
failed all subjects or just passed one subject !
Last week,i had a seriously soul hit from my mum and my brother
At the first,she was helping me to ask my brother about the fees of vocal class
go to school just for talking,playing fools,copying homework
i didn't study at all in this year
so my result was very SUCKS
failed all subjects or just passed one subject !
Last week,i had a seriously soul hit from my mum and my brother
At the first,she was helping me to ask my brother about the fees of vocal class
my bro asked:
' how much is your budget?
I answer:
' don't ask me,mum will pay for that
I answer:
' don't ask me,mum will pay for that
(Damn it! I was regret after i answer this)
Mum said:
' You have nothing to do at home everyday
' I ask you find a part-time job but you don't want
' now you need money only ask from me
' I won't pay it for you !
Me :
' (speechless and depressed)
Mum asked:
' Is it you feel you sang very nice ?
' So you want to be singer
' Singer not easy to do, son.
My bro answer:
' yeah! Entertainment industry is very complicated
' in so much jobs, singer is the most hardest
Me :
' ....................................
Mum asked:
Mum said:
' You have nothing to do at home everyday
' I ask you find a part-time job but you don't want
' now you need money only ask from me
' I won't pay it for you !
Me :
' (speechless and depressed)
Mum asked:
' Is it you feel you sang very nice ?
' So you want to be singer
' Singer not easy to do, son.
My bro answer:
' yeah! Entertainment industry is very complicated
' in so much jobs, singer is the most hardest
Me :
' ....................................
Mum asked:
' what you want to do after you graduated ?
I answer :
' I don't know
' maybe just looking for some part-time job at shopping mall
' maybe just looking for some part-time job at shopping mall
She said :
' that salary just enough for you to eat
' not enought for you to use
' not enought for you to use
And my reply was :
' Oo~
She asked :
' 1 more year you're going to graduate your secondary school
' but you haven think about your future
' what you want to do ?
' but you haven think about your future
' what you want to do ?
I answer :
' I don't know
' (I was very depressed that time)
She asked :
' Last time i ask you about study at Melaka
' how was you think right now ?
I answer :
' I don't want to study at there
' I dislike repair machinery
' If i don't like and you sent me to there also useless
' I will same like now also !
Mum :
' (speechless..)
Brother :
' Why want go to Melaka study ?
' What you like to study now ?
I answer :
' I don't know
(I want to say music but i didn't because i knew they sure disagree)
Brother :
' How about design ?
' Since last time you like drawing and design so much
' Just now i went Redbox with a friend
' He just back from China
' He was a designer
' Just study for design 2years
' Salary per month about rm2000-4000 now
' Just need more creative then can be a good designer
' (he was suggesting me to be a designer)
My reply :
' (speechless again...)
Brother said :
' If you want study design you can study at HanChiang
' because if you study good at there
' they will sent you to out country study again
I answer :
' ............
' Ish ! I don't know larh !
' (go to my room and sleep)
' I don't know
' (I was very depressed that time)
She asked :
' Last time i ask you about study at Melaka
' how was you think right now ?
I answer :
' I don't want to study at there
' I dislike repair machinery
' If i don't like and you sent me to there also useless
' I will same like now also !
Mum :
' (speechless..)
Brother :
' Why want go to Melaka study ?
' What you like to study now ?
I answer :
' I don't know
(I want to say music but i didn't because i knew they sure disagree)
Brother :
' How about design ?
' Since last time you like drawing and design so much
' Just now i went Redbox with a friend
' He just back from China
' He was a designer
' Just study for design 2years
' Salary per month about rm2000-4000 now
' Just need more creative then can be a good designer
' (he was suggesting me to be a designer)
My reply :
' (speechless again...)
Brother said :
' If you want study design you can study at HanChiang
' because if you study good at there
' they will sent you to out country study again
I answer :
' ............
' Ish ! I don't know larh !
' (go to my room and sleep)
That night i can't fall asleep
I keep thinking
why they don't know what i like ?!
why they don't give me a chance to do what i like ?!
why they just know my brother can do it but i'm not ?!
WHY?!
Those 'whys' annoyed me till now
Because of this
I lost my ways
My dreams was broken
My life was meaningless now
ANYONE CAN HELP ME ?!
I NEED YOUR HELP !
PLEASE !!!
I keep thinking
why they don't know what i like ?!
why they don't give me a chance to do what i like ?!
why they just know my brother can do it but i'm not ?!
WHY?!
Those 'whys' annoyed me till now
Because of this
I lost my ways
My dreams was broken
My life was meaningless now
ANYONE CAN HELP ME ?!
I NEED YOUR HELP !
PLEASE !!!
what we could be ? 7:40 PM.
